February 3, 2011

Call me crazy (my husband already does), but since starting this weight loss challenge… I’ve started to have some very strange side effects. Not the normal ones like cravings or fatigue or even growling stomachs. No, that would be too simple for my body to have. Instead, it’s decided to start invading my dreams.

For the past three nights now I’ve been having what I’ve termed “binge dreams.” I called my sister up this morning to see if she’s been having the same symptoms since we are pretty much doing the same routine, and she started laughing. My husband had about the same reaction. Each night I find myself in a place with family or friends surrounded by food. Once it was a party, another time it was a food show (much like the ones I go to almost every year with my mother and sister). Unknown people start bringing by plates full of our favorite foods somehow always ending up with a huge slice of apple pie with ice cream on top. The strange thing is that I can taste each one in my dreams. Now the funny part is that by the end of the dream I am telling myself that I completely ruined my diet and that I’m going to have to start all over again. I wake up thanking the heavens that it was only just a dream.

So is this strange? I guess so. But in a way I’m happy for these partial nightmares. It lets me get out all of my longings without the calories and I wake up proud of myself for having stuck with this healthy lifestyle and not giving in to all of these things in real life.

Talking of this healthy lifestyle, I’m happy to report that my husband and I have been getting up at 5:15am every morning, braving the cold walk over to the gym in our neighborhood and getting on the treadmills. I walk about 2-3 miles 5 days a week and have started adding a few running intervals every now and then. Hopefully I can work up to running these 2 miles at some point.

Dreams or no dreams… I’m sticking to this!

Last Journal’s Check In:
Current Weight: 175 lbs (my heaviest point ever)

Current Check In:
Current Weight: 161 lbs (14 lbs down)

January 19, 2011

What can I say… this challenge hasn’t been much of anything yet. The first week, both my husband and I were home sick. This second week, I’ve had annual doctor’s exams leading to a cyst removal today. (I feel like a bullet was removed from my back… eek).

All of that to say, I haven’t done anything. I did take my measurements and researched a lot of different diets but haven’t started anything. It has been pitiful really.

But there is always a silver lining, right? There is a second chance? It looks like there may be a way for me to beat this! I’ve made a contract with my family with a lot at stake.

I’ll have more to write about soon, but I just wanted to give a heads up on what’s been going on.

Here’s my goal:
Current Weight: 175 lbs (my heaviest point ever)
2 Month Goal Weight: 20 lbs
Overall Goal: 130 lbs